2015 New Year's Reflection

1. I’ve come to realize that my weight: is relevant to my health, not my happiness. And completely out of control. I need to get this resolved this year. I’m getting too old to keep making excuses for not being as healthy as I should be.

2. I’ve come to realize that my job: is awesome! And ever-expanding. I’m doing things now I couldn’t have imagined two years ago let alone five!

3. I’ve come to realize that when I’m driving: I truly relax, yes even in traffic.

4. I’ve come to realize that I need: help too sometimes. And I’m getting better at asking for and receiving it.

5. I’ve come to realize that I have lost: nothing. I have let go of attachment and know that something better always comes in.

6. I’ve come to realize that I hate it when: I want to help and for some reason can’t. I’m aware that I still have to work on control issues.

7. I’ve come to realize that if I’m drunk: I will pay for it later.

8. I’ve come to realize that money: not a measure of anything, but it is a means to greater freedom.

9. I’ve come to realize that certain people: should be avoided for your own sanity, welfare and highest purpose. I let them go with love.

10. I’ve come to realize that I’ll always: have a twisted sense of humor. And a bit of a potty mouth.

11. I’ve come to realize that my sibling(s): is not me and will not respond as I do. And she understands me better than I understand myself some days.

12. I’ve come to realize that my mom: really did do the best she could with what she had. And she still is.

13. I’ve come to realize that my cell phone: is an extension of my consciousness. If my cell phone rings alone in a forest and I am not there to hear it, does it really go to voice mail?

14. I’ve come to realize that when I woke up this morning: it is Friday and I didn’t do the Thursday night pre-cleaning lady pick up, so they don’t think we live like animals. Seriously, coffee cups and shoes multiply through out the week. I’m enjoying some creative work before I romp and play with my puppy.

15. I’ve come to realize that last night before I went to sleep: I am an adult and if I don’t get enough sleep it is my fault alone. I can now blame this period of insomnia in my life on menopause.

16. I’ve come to realize that right now I am thinking: don’t I have real work to do today?  I need to step away from the computer and enjoy the rest of my day off.

17. I’ve come to realize that my dad: is in a box, on my bar, across the dining room from me. And his birthday is next week, I have to put his card out. He is also in my life and work daily, even from the other side.

18. I’ve come to realize that when I get on Facebook: I get to spend inane moments with my own thoughts. Sometimes I share. And I probably share more now than I did five years ago.

19. I’ve come to realize that today: is moving on with out me. I need to run some errands, cats need food.

20. I’ve come to realize that tonight: I will make dinner and pack for a short trip, more stuff to do. While Mr. Rinaldi is at a board meeting, I’ll get to have dinner with a very dear friend and spend “girl time” catching up.

21. I’ve come to realize that tomorrow: we have a Christmas party and then we leave for a few days to celebrate Rick’s birthday. is not promised to any of us.

22. I’ve come to realize that I really want to: become a certified Yoga instructor next year. Impact the world in a greater way than I initially thought I could – to help others see the miracle and wonder within themselves.

23. I’ve come to realize that the person who is most likely to repost this is: certainly not Rick. I believe each of you should make this reflection an annual tradition, to see where you are and where you’ve been.

24. I’ve come to realize that life: is not a dress rehearsal and sending love to any situation helps.

25. I’ve come to realize that this weekend: Rick and his “evil” twin Bob are getting old! And no matter what, they will always be nine years older than me!

26. I’ve realized the best music to listen to when I am upset: anything Disney!

27. I’ve come to realize that this year: I found strive for balance, I sometimes misplace it but I know where to find it for the most part. And I launched a radio network – and we have 1 million listeners monthly! And I’m working on being in the moment and celebrating my successes, rather than viewing them in my rear view mirror and moving on to the next endeavor.

28. I’ve come to realize that my exes: were perfect, exactly the way they were, for someone else.

29. I’ve come to realize that maybe I should: spend more time in meditation.

30. I’ve come to realize that I love: everyone as an extension of myself. The concept of separateness is an illusion.

31. I’ve come to realize that I don’t understand: most electronic devices or their instruction manuals, I would rather just push buttons and see what happens. I am a 4 year old in that respect.

32. I’ve come to realize my past: was a wonderful chance to learn, change and grow — especially the painful stuff.

33. I’ve come to realize that parties: are to be attended, no more sitting home and being a hermit. And thrown, and planned, and spontaneously allowed to happen!

34. I’ve come to realize that I’m totally terrified: of nothing. I am occasionally uncomfortable, but the things that used to terrify me are all gone. I can KILL my own spiders now THANK YOU VERY MUCH!

35. I’ve come to realize that my life: is AWESOME! A glorious miracle filled with magic and wonder. And while I love who I am and what I do, I especially love the connections we share, those are the things which make it pretty damn awesome!

When you are ready to let go of the things that are holding you back, I’m here to help.